Will I win this fight? I have been struggling all day with thoughts of self-harm. It doesn’t help that Violet keeps suggesting ways I could hurt myself. So far, I have been successful in this fight today, but the day is not over. I worry I’m not strong enough. Anyway, I was a total badass and got some cleaning done which I haven’t done in a really long time. There’s still more to do but its a start. I just hope I can keep the house up and all the responsibilities like I used to be able to. It sucks watching yourself become more dysfunctional every day.